Friday, October 4, 2013
But I say this not to feel sorry for myself. I've already hit that floor. I say this because, I need to use this...fire...that I feel to really jumpstart my life . As far as my weight goes I'm down 55 lbs. I could be down alot more , but I've gotten comfortable. I was content. But now that my world is shaken up and upside down, I need to channel all this energy I've given to this man to myself. I really think this experience is going to be a turning point for me.
I've deleted all my social media contacts except this blog. I really want to take these next 6 months to focus on me. I'm going to pour everything I have into this blog and my weightloss journey because I want to reemerge as someone new. I have to break all ties, all connects....I have to bury my past. When I resurface, I want to resurface as someone new. My own woman. A healthy, independent woman and look as amazing as I can make myself feel.
That's going to take time, but I swear to you friends, I have to make this happen. I have to do this. The only person I have now is myself and now, I've got something to prove.